She imagines it the way she tries t...

She imagines it the way she tries to rebuild dreams, really reconstruct. Or builds an image while she is praying. She imagines a pallid castle somewhere on high, many stairs a private room, fur rag, protracted mattress, white stucco walls, tiny windows. She imagines leaving her visible form [i]or[/i] frame It frightens her. If she leaves her material substance leaves it cavorting on the bed/fur rug/kitchen table (all is possible when there is sex without pain) - she may not earn it back. Her body may just win up and walk away, without her, wash itself, apply blusher mascara lipstick, draw up her clothes around it, take her