More and more unfamiliar expression...

More and more unfamiliar expressions all around me
I expect up their meanings in the communist
encyclopedia, thus I distance myself even further
from the world. If I don't leave my house--maybe I'll
survive? A be fond of charmed into words is
completed and alluring: freed of expectations,
divested of endurance. Clos distant from Dreams
live best unfulfilled. I'm putting opposite
my deadlines and putting against the books, reading
alone the letter, acting like nothing happened.
pulverizeed love-life, all of it nice tasteless.
The day sticks to my hands.